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Post by Circe on Nov 10, 2018 18:42:19 GMT -6
Catherine made an exasperated face at the mention of having to learn yet another thing. "Some days I really start to think that this is some sort of remedial training because I failed something I'm not even aware of." She commented, thinking that starving sounded like a better idea than being dependant on something that repulsed her to much. However, the idea of loosing control was a frightening one when all things were considered.
"I've mostly avoided it this long... but I can't stand the thought of loosing myself again." Catherine admitted. She wasn't even sure if she'd be able to come back from it all if it happened again. Especially given how long it had taken her to regain what few good sensibilities she had after the first incident. "My control isn't the problem.. the problem is idiots who decide to slit their hands open and wave it in my face.."
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Post by demikara on Nov 10, 2018 19:34:59 GMT -6
"It is remedial training." He pointed out, more amused than not. "Magic Control 101 - how not to explode things by accident." He grinned and looked to her, meeting her eyes dead on. "Or maybe it's Vampire Blood lust 101 - don't eat bleeding idiots." Though admittedly, having some idiot wave a bloody hand in front of a half starved dhampir would push anyone's control. "You did good not to kill her where she stood, and under the circumstances, fell under vampire law. Congratulations, it's all her fault, have a pat on the head for not killing her, as Milo would say. But Milo's an ass when his little habibi isn't there to coo over."
And then he was damned sickening and it was a pain in the ass to be around. "Start small." He suggested. "Have a bag of blood once a week or something. You'll feel healthier than you ever have, and it may even do something about that ridiculous pain being bound is said to cause." It may even break the binding. He doubted the binding was really all the strong and had no doubt Catherine could break it, if she wanted to. "Or pain in general. And if you want to have it here, where you know I can handle any situations that happen, I can have some delivered here for you. You're not going to scare me, and even you have to work to hurt me." Oh she could do it, no doubt about it. He knew exactly which one of them was more powerful and it was not him. But he'd make her work for it, and if she lost control, well, he'd have at least that advantage.
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Post by Circe on Nov 11, 2018 15:23:17 GMT -6
Catherine doubted that it was Cheyenne's fault and only her fault; there was some amount of responsiblity that she likely carried alone just from giving into the temptation to see the physician as food. "Only one of us seems to need the remedial training too.." She muttered under her breath. Far as she knew, Tyrus was doing just fine at avoiding his own triggers, where as Catherine seemed unable to avoid them some days. She just hoped that this one mistake didn't make things worse, but she didn't know if Cheyenne was even going to use the proper channels. From what she had been able to sense, without intentionally going too far, the woman seemed to be satisfied that she'd won some kind of argument. "I'll take it under consideration.. and the pain, you get used to it." She said without much further detail.
The binding was a struggle yes, but after awhile one got used to it and figured out how to live with it. While most didn't enjoy it, it was something that for some was a normal happenstance. Either Council made the decision due to a violation of their laws or in some rare cases, a teacher might petition it to be done to help control abilities that were developing too quickly for a student to learn to handle. The second were removed in stages, careful to ensure that the student could demonstrate adequate control over things.
But, no one wanted to hear the suggestion of a binding even whispered. To some it was likened to imprisonment or slavery, you had no freedom over your own magic and were prevented from developing a symbotic relationship with it. A relationship that was essential to any kind of mastery over any chosen branch of magic.
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Post by demikara on Nov 12, 2018 8:44:28 GMT -6
"They stuck me in a therapy group. Don't think you're the only one who struggles." He said simply. It was a lot harder to avoid his triggers than he liked to think. "I also have one on one weekly meetings with a grief counselor. And I may have to see a therapist as well as the group sessions. I have my own remedial lessons and they all have to do with emotions." He had to learn to process things in a healthy manner, apparently, and until he showed signs of doing just that, he had weekly visits and his time was taken up by therapists and counselors, and group meetings three fucking times a week to keep him sober.
"And pain is still pain, even if you get used to it." Once she had more control over her magic, he was going to push, hard, for her binding to be loosened up, if at all possible. "You may want to consider seeing a therapist too. They have some cleared for the unseen. Of course, not that we're unseen anymore, not that I approve, but it is what it is." He was against them coming out. Oh, he understood why it happened, but it meant children were in danger and he was still furious over that one.
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Post by Circe on Nov 12, 2018 10:24:46 GMT -6
"Oh.. we've been down the therapy route Tyrus, it's not going to work." Catherine said shaking her head. She had yet to find a counselor who wasn't full of the same platitudes that she'd heard before, they were nice words, but not terribly useful to her. Besides which, few of them were even interested in seeing someone of the unseen. They had precious few physicians and mental health supports; and in some ways were still practicing old, outdated, and disproven methods. "You can suggest it all you want, it's not profitable for either party involved." She explained. How was a mental health practioner going to even begin to treat someone who could more than likely bypass any sheilding they used. "Telepath, remember?" Catherine added pointing a long slender finger towards her head.
Telepathy was usual within the unseen, but rarely did it reach the classes 4 and above levels. Mostly those who were below those classes were able to skim outer thoughts, make hazarded guesses on the intentions of the thoughts, but most shields stopped them dead in their tracks. Classes 4 and above, specifically class 5 tended to make short work of many mental sheilds without even breaking a sweat.
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Post by demikara on Nov 13, 2018 7:27:07 GMT -6
"I'd say to find one with good shields, but it's hard enough finding one in general." He admitted. "And you're a strong enough telepath you break shields without meaning too." Not that Bronson had caught onto this yet, to his amusement. He considered what else would be a good replacement. "You could get a therapy dog?" He was half joking as he said it. He couldn't see Catherine with a pet at all, much less a dog. It may help regardless, but he didn't see it happening. Animals tended to be put off by vampires, and he assumed that applied the dhampirs as well. He could be wrong though.
Grinning he couldn't help but poke a little fun. "Or a therapy capybara?" He was never going to get over the fact that Brandon had a capybara as a familiar. What did he do, go to a zoo and pick out an animal there?
That was, in fact, exactly what he had done, and he'd never admit it.
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Post by Circe on Nov 13, 2018 18:47:31 GMT -6
"Nice try mage, it's not going to happen." Catherine said with a derisive snort. "And I can't help much of that first part, even with time and practice. Some people just broadcast and I'm the unfortunate receiver more often than not, and I've yet to meet a null whose a therapist." She added, thinking briefly how glad she was to have been able to pull Xiaolian onto her team. The woman was little trouble at all and her partner Molly, got in enough trouble for both of them anyway.
"As for familiars, I am not a witch. It's bad enough Baird has her's prancing around the bloody place as it is." She added, suspecting that Rufus was more than what Baird passed him off as. If she had enough time and patience, she'd have taken a look at the magic surrounding the skittish man that their ME kept on as an assistant. But as it currently stood, she had little time or patience.
Issues with the vampires, personnel, and her own problems were more than filling her plate.
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Post by demikara on Nov 14, 2018 11:06:43 GMT -6
"A registered therapy animal is not a familiar." He said simply. "But can come along where ever you go, and can help you in a variety of ways. I am well aware you aren't a witch. But there are therapy animals who specialize in stress and ones that specialize in PTSD. Even just petting an animal is supposed to help. Mundanes have therapy animals for just about every reason out there. Some even help with eating disorders." Besides, a pet would give Catherine something to help with her stress, therapy animal or not.
As for Baird, he had little to say about her and her unusual familiar. "I'd consider it at least. It may help. And you don't have to worry about the thoughts an animal would have."
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Post by Circe on Nov 15, 2018 16:22:10 GMT -6
"An animal is not going to happen Tyrus and a therapist is at the bottom of a very long list of other things." Catherine said shaking her head. Broadmoore had left her with a bad enough taste for the unseen's psychiatric services, and an animal was just another liability. It was bad enough her so called half sibling, Scottlyn, was overly eager to open her mouth about anything and everything. As much as she had tried to explain it, the other wasn't interested in listening, and so she had given up.
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